Gladly Godless

| Mon 9 Jul 2012 | 13 Comments | 895 Views

Author HypoChristi

A congenial, Southern, atheist, bisexual, vegetarian woman devoted to equality for all. Loves to amuse and be amused. | @hypochristi

The following is an essay I wrote for the Freedom From Religion Foundation’s 2012 College Student Essay contest. This content originally appeared on my own blog, http://hypochristi.blogspot.com.

Follower of Christ- that’s what my name, Christiana, means. Contrary to the definition, the path I choose to follow is my own.  Admitting my atheism to the world opened my eyes to the possibilities. Many people still fail to understand how my life can possess meaning and happiness without believing in a higher power. Religion instills its own meaning into a person, not allowing her to think for herself. Atheism is the cure for that poisonous indoctrination. I’m an out atheist because I want to serve as a living example that a humanistic worldview makes for a more fulfilling life. I strive to show nonbelievers in the closet that coming out unifies us, telling believers that reason prevails.

The coming out process always begins with a seed of doubt. I ignored mine at first. I thought attending various churches during my preteen years would somehow convince me of a god’s existence.  It occurred to me at fifteen that I didn’t need religion to guide my life. I refrained from telling the world until I turned sixteen in fear of my small North Carolina community’s hostility. Coming out as bisexual soon afterward made this a very delicate time in my life, helping me learn the type of friends worth keeping. The disparaging comments I heard then mirror the comments I still hear today: my heart’s a black hole, I worship Satan, and I possess no sense of right and wrong. I refuse to let anyone tell me who I am. I waste no time trying to convince ignorant people of their misguided opinions about atheists and let my actions speak for themselves. Some of my so-called “evil” atheist activities include regularly donating blood, campaigning for better treatment of animals and LGBT people, and practicing martial arts (which I hope to never use on anyone). The religious right’s monopoly on morality needs to end.

Religion planted in my head that being bisexual made me worthy of death. I believed I was a defective product of God that deserved punishment. I owe my recovery to discovering the horrors of religious texts while perusing them for advice. Although my realization that religion oppresses the mind was unintentional, I can’t apologize where that knowledge led me. No prayer ever gave me answers, but taking action in searching for them opened my mind.

My actions as an out atheist demonstrate to this religiously over-saturated society that nonbelievers can (and often do) live moral lives. A deity need not tell me suffering is bad or murder is wrong; common sense equips me with all the tools I need to make good choices. The more nonbelievers that out themselves, the more ground religious zealots lose with their ridiculous claims of atheist immorality. Too many religious people claim they’ve never met a nonbeliever and nothing would challenge their ideologies quicker than seeing us helping others. We nonbelievers use our two hands to help heal the world’s ills while the believers waste time praying with theirs. The nonreligious community’s biggest issue is working alone; coming out brings us closer to unity.

Attacks from the religious right frequently entail nonsense about the erosion of America’s religious freedoms. Banding together to fight back against these claims shows that we refuse to shut up, like believers want us to. By increasing the amount of nonbelievers who come out, we’ll decrease the isolation we experience. Atheist groups continue to sprout up everywhere, from national organizations to high school and college clubs. The choice to tell others remains a deeply personal one because of potentially hostile reactions from those around us. Living in a Bible-belt state, I know the struggle of weighing the pros and cons of such a decision. Declaring to the world that you’re religion-free brings an intensely liberating feeling. You no longer have to hide or lie about what you believe (or don’t believe)!  Too often, people of a religion can’t even agree on what THEY believe.

Religion only results in division; just look at the countless Christian denominations that exist. No religion avoids the schisms that result in differing factions, schools, and denominations. Religions thrive on forcing followers to obey their version of morality. It’s capable of turning good-hearted people into rabid simpletons that defend even the most abhorrent dogmas. Atheism demands nothing and commands no one. Atheists look to make progress, not hinder it based on outdated beliefs. Theists who assert that no good deed means a thing without believing in their deity probably won’t disappear anytime soon. Thankfully, a humanist’s life isn’t centered on pleasing anyone (especially invisible friends in the sky). Even non-theistic religions pose a threat to one’s mind because they still reinforce rules and restrictions. The tools humans need to succeed in life require no supernatural assistance. Our innate curiosity of the world and ability to reason serves us more than well. We help others because it brings us great satisfaction to do so and not because we want to earn brownie points toward a favorable afterlife. Common sense is sufficient to tell us that acts such as murder and rape are wrong. Asking questions and taking action changes the world; prayer and accepting beliefs on nothing except blind faith get us nowhere.

I am an atheist, therefore I am free. Religion sentences the greatest human treasure, the mind, to prison. Secular humanism enables us to use our minds to better ourselves and the world as a whole. Humanism encourages the pursuit of knowledge instead of squandering it. With my confidence in humanity’s potential to better the world without religious influence, I proudly say that I’m an out atheist. What about you?

  • http://godsdeconstructed.wordpress.com/ Roger Hart

    How wonderful to hear from another woman who, like Emily, has rejected religion. In my country, the United Kingdom, there are so many stories in the media about women priests in the Church of England you’d think every woman in the country wants to become a bishop. Good luck to them, I say; I may think they are delusional about their beliefs but they have caused extreme concern to traditionalists.

    Traditionalists are extreme in their adherence to biblical texts, most of which exclude women. They also have an abject hatred of gays, lesbians, bisexuals and those who are, god forbid, transsexuals. Traditionalists insist that what they call sexual ‘deviancy’ is by choice, and although researcher after researcher is publishing data that show sexuality is set before birth by genetic, epigenetic or hormonal factors within the womb, the traditionalists refuse to accept it.

    So, to read a post a non-believing woman blogger who has not only rejected delusional thinking but is also bisexual warms the cockles of my heart. I hope there will be many more women joining the fray.

    Oh, one more thing. Christiana’s post is very good too. A worthy addition to the argument about non-believers and morality. Well done and keep up the good work.

    • http://hypochristi.blogspot.com/ HypoChristi

      I appreciate your comment, Roger. Saying my post warmed your heart brought the biggest smile to my face. I too long for women to break free from their religious shackles and value themselves as equals.

      I accomplish nothing by keeping silent. I used to wonder incessantly why I was handed these cards in life because I didn’t think I was strong enough to accept these parts of me. Years later, my atheism and bisexuality became my greatest sources of resilience to weakness.

      Again, thank you for considering my post worthy. It’s an honor to show my work here.

      • http://godsdeconstructed.wordpress.com/ Roger Hart

        You deserve it. Well done.

  • http://bigthink.com/blogs/daylight-atheism Adam Lee

    Excellent essay, and very pleased to make your acquaintance. I have to appreciate the irony of an atheist named Christiana. :)

    • Emily Dietle

      …and my middle name- Christine.

    • http://hypochristi.blogspot.com/ HypoChristi

      Thank you very much, Adam. :)

      I never get tired of my name’s irony. That’s why I thought it would be fun to slap into the essay. Even if you call me Christi, it’s still Latin for Christ. I can’t get away from the Christian meanings.

  • Tommy Adams

    Really enjoyed this essay. “I am an atheist, therefore I am free” makes for a great email signature. Since I came out as a atheist years ago I’ve weeded out all those folks who don’t want to be my friend and believe me, the less clutter the better.

    • http://hypochristi.blogspot.com/ HypoChristi

      Thank you, Tommy! The weeding out process was painful for me. However, I knew it would be more painful in the long run to let those who didn’t want to accept me stay around than it would to cut them out of my life. It was like ripping off a band-aid: stung at first, but healed nicely.

  • Hasnain Ali Raza

    Nicely said a common sense is sufficient for right and wrong…

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  • been trying to reach you

    “You may not know me, but I know everything about you.

    I know when you sit down and when you rise up.

    I am familiar with all your ways.

    Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.

    For you were made in my image.

    In me you live and move and have your being.

    For you are my offspring.

    I knew you even before you were conceived.

    I chose you when I planned creation.

    You were not a mistake, for all your days

    are written in my book.

    I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.

    You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

    I knit you together in your mother’s womb.

    And brought you forth on the day you were born.

    I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know me.

    I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.

    And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.

    Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.

    I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.

    For I am the perfect father.

    Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.

    For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.

    My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.

    Because I love you with an everlasting love.

    My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore.

    And I rejoice over you with singing.

    I will never stop doing good to you.

    For you are my treasured possession.

    I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.

    And I want to show you great and marvelous things.

    If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.

    Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.

    For it is I who gave you those desires.

    I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.

    For I am your greatest encourager.

    I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.

    When you are broken-hearted, I am close to you.

    As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.

    One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.

    And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.

    I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.

    For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.

    He is the exact representation of my being.

    He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.

    And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.

    Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.

    His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.

    I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.

    If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.

    And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.

    Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.

    I have always been Father, and will always be Father.

    My question is…Will you be my child?

    I am waiting for you

    My Child…”

    Love, Your Father

    Almighty God.

    • Zach

      Hahaha no.

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